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Bewilderment
Written July 15th, 2004
Jade C. Bell
take your imagination
stretch it as far
as you possibly can
and let our walk begin
can you see that shooting star
shooting through gods eye
through a milky blanket
he through across the blackened sky
do you even no where you are
well I will tell you
but wait for the sun rise
so we can see the blue
within ones eyes
and the bewilderment
off in the distant
where trees part
or maybe we become a part
of natures heart
in our eternal walk
as living entities
or as spirits
that's right that's you and I
walking and talking
through the thickets
or different trees
and the under grow
of the hanging grove of saplings, hemlock
evergreens to the biggest oaks
cloaked with darkness
just like in your dreams
not nightmares
because you found some comfort
in this walk in the greens
within the dark forest
protected by gods love
not having to even glance back at the trail
like Jesuses climb up the stairs
not having to look behind
just to feel the sun in time
that's timeless
on the other side
with the understanding
its never over when we die
because there was never a beginning
nor an end in an universe with no proximities
so let us dance
within life's coincidences
as mortals lets co inside
with love and laughter with brides
and god bless the day we walk that path
the day we strip off our egos
in the aftermath
when there's no fears of death
its paradoxal
to just let go
and be humbled
to see your bones crumble
and just flow
in perfect peace and harmony
with your foot prints
once left in the dirt
lifted up in that breeze
and carried with us as lessons
we had learnt
to leave prints in gods heart
on our walk through fathers trees
of eternal enlightenment
within this bewilderment
but in the present
for whatever reasons
I am not quite there yet
to walk you through the seasons
I am trying to gain the wisdom
but need some guidance
as I sit in this chair
I try o god how I try
and I never give up
living up to the universes expectations
within silenced screams
about taking one step forwards
and three steps back
in to the black
of missing my freedom
and my chance
that I thought I was getting closer to
now seems apparent
only slips further away
because the universe is aware
of my anger and frustrations
I find it unfair
because not for one moment
in this bewilderment
did I ever doubt the universes predictions
I have surrendered to god extensively
in every conscious thought of every waking day
but that's not good enough
for they are making me start over again
so I stretch my imagination
and I am running
through thickets
of under grow
of the grove
the summer heat
roles beads of sweat
down my skin
determined to find you
to make our dream come true
I could be the wind
that streams through you hair
still running without rest
through the autumn trees
I feel the leaves
dry under my feet
as leaves float like wings
around your walk
can you hear my words
whisper please believe
and never lose faith in me
no matter how many times
I rewrite this chart
with detours
in the hours
that drag by
in to years
I have faith
That I will make it
still running
I am running through that forest
of deep greens
I have become tough
as nails a shelled snail
moving in slow motion
just a notion
with a lost and found
destination down that long trail
in the deepening winters snow
with cold lips
but I could feel you
out of the blue
waiting at my finger tips
as if you never left my side
steam came out of your mouth
warming gods creation
with your warm breath
with long strides
you walked
in the snow
and we let go
in a spring shower
I was just waiting to collide
as the flowers opened
at the mercy of the rain
gods nourishment
we just stood in a path
in a metaphorical clearing
in the trees that part
or we just became a part
out in the forest somewhere
we will meet
at a beginning that never ends
we wont talk about the bridges
we had burnt
under the hanging grove
of cedars, spruce trees maybe
there will be no need to make amends
under pines and willows
that all depends
of our contentment
in being humble
in seeing our bones crumble
freed of mortal egos
with everyone who we made a impact
or slight contact with
in unconditional love
will sing and echo
through the forest
as our mortality rests
but our spirits walk
and talk about
the lessons we learnt
on our eternal walk
and let our foot prints
soak in to the earth
in this bewilderment
and let them give birth
upon gods heart
I am trying to focus
on changes to progress
I try to listen to any messages
from my souls language
but nothing yet
but I cant forget
your dream and making it our reality
and never doubted it for a moment
because I care
but promise me this
as mortals or spirits
that you will meet me there
in gods inspiration
in gods creation
within his bewilderment
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